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A random post... a preview on my upcoming post... hehehehe...

The "M" word...

Money...money...money... It's so funny... :p

I am contemplating on my personal budget. Basically, with my current pay, I am supposed to lead a more boring lifestyle! Hahaha... I can be quite spendthrift, I know. But well, I've worked hard to earn my pay, so why not spend on leisure some time?? :p

Anyways, I've just taken up life insurance the other day. Getting older (ehem...more mature), I really need to think on my finances. This month, need to cut costs down a bit here and there. Meaning, no Clarks warehouse sale tomorrow. Huhuhu... No worries... I can live without new shoes (already have quite a few, still-in-good-shape pairs stacked on my shoe shelve. Haha!). Whatever it is, hope I'll get my travel claims soon (a good RM500++). If I get it soon, that'll go towards my insurance's 1st month premium and savings. ;)

Other than that, I've just started taking supplements last week - Alpha Lipid Lifeline. Since the past couple of days, I am a wee bit more energized waking up in the mornings. (I still dread going off to work, but at least I no longer look as "soggy" and worn out as I used to! Hehehe!). Hope for more positive effects soon. I'll mention about the supplement again another time. :)

Right now, gonna go make me some thing to eat. Came home a bit late today, haven't had my dinner. Hungry! ^_^

Shoes!

It's Friday!!! Yay!!! Planning to go to Clarks Warehouse Sale tomorrow.
Ok, now, I gotta get ready for work first. ;)

Beep!

I am at the office... but a bit worn out. Not that busy at the moment, other than finishing up on reports...but I feel kinda tired. Guess I didn't get enough (and quality) sleep last night. It was too hot and humid, so I kept waking up every other hour. Huhuhu...

Anyways, am quite happy these days. A few days ago, I managed to find a couple of my old friends from Glasgow. Yippeee! Well, 1 actually found me, while I found the other 1. Nosheen, thanks for contacting me through Facebook. Leanne, so glad I found you on bebo.com. :) Really glad you girls still remember me, as I still remember you too. :D Ok, gotta get back to work. 5 mins break, and I'm back on track for work. :)

Wasurenaide...

Another beautiful ballad by my fave Tohoshinki (lyrics, romanization, and translation humbly taken from dbskarchives.blogspot.com, with credits to lunatunalover)...

Wasurenaide

BEDDO ni suwatte kimi no koto wo kangaeteita
Aenakute mo ii aitai kono kimochi dake de ii kara

Tsuyoku nokotteiru kioku kimi kara no mijikai MESSEEJI ga
Setsunaku mune shimetsukeru kedo towa no shiawase boku ga mamoritsuzuketai

* Kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
Kimi ga iru sekai ni sugu tonde yukitai
Aitakute mo aitakute mo
Matteru kara tada wasurenaide

Itsumo no hodou ni kimi no kage wo kanjiteita
Shizuka ni me wo toji inoru itsumademo kienai you ni

Fukaku kizutsuiteita koto kizukasezu waratteita kimi ni
Zutto taisetsu ni suru kara sakebitsuzukeru arifureta kotoba demo

* Repeat

Kimi ni fureta yoru kowareteshimau hodo ni
Tadayou kaori ni mata omoi ga tsunoru baby

Itsumademo hatenai you ni
Motto tsuyoku tsunaida te hanarenai you ni

Kaze ni natte sotto tsutsumitai
Kimi ga iru sekai ni sugu tonde yukitai
Aitakute mo aitakute mo
Matteru kara matteru kara

* Repeat

Koko ni iru yo wasurenaide

Don't Forget Me

I sit on my bed and think of you
It's alright even if I can't see you...
I miss you, but just this feeling is enough

The memories of you remain, they're so strong
I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully
But I want to keep protecting your eternal happiness

* I'll become the wind and wrap gently around you
Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it
Even though I want to see you so much... I miss you so much...
I'm waiting for you, don't forget me

On the path we'd always walk, I felt your presence
Silently, I close my eyes and pray that it'll never disappear

Without acknowledging the things that hurt you deeply, you just kept on laughing and smiling
I'll always remember and cherish that
And I'll keep yelling out to the world, even if the words I use are but ordinary

* Repeat

The nights touched by you...
It's enough to break me; your fragrance hanging in the air and these feelings that build up, baby
So that this'll never end, I'll hold your hand even tighter
So that we'll never be separated...

I'll become the wind and wrap gently around you
Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it
Even though I want to see you so much... I miss you so much...
I'm waiting for you... I'm waiting for you

* Repeat

I'm right here, don't forget me

Twenty-six...

I am officially 26 yrs old! :D

Had a pretty moderate birthday celebration this year, but it's OK. I was still happy on that day (29th April). Usually celebrate my birthday with the rest of my family members, but due to certain constraints, we'll only be gathering up in a couple of weeks. A little saddened, but like I said, it's still OK. I managed to have dinner with a few dear friends, so that made the emptiness fade away a little. :)

I even got an unexpected pressie from someone - a beautiful embroidered "telekung" (prayer clothes), along with my 1st pay from the home tuition I just started on last month. :D To some people, it may not be much what I make from the home tuition thingy, but hey, no one's gonna give me extra cash for doing something I actually quite like, right?? ;)

Oh, here's a pic of what I got from my parents (got the pics from letsgodigital.org). :)

Happiness is...

I got to spend some quality time with my parents yesterday...and it's made my whole day wonderful! :) It's been so long since I've had them all to my selfish self. Haha! It was so nice to be pampered by them. It was just what I needed.
Maybe for them, it was just a shopping outing (my mama wanted to buy a new shirt, and both of my parents wanted to buy gifts for their grandchildren), but for me, yesterday was my time with them and no one else...felt wonderful being picked up from my house and sent back home later in the night. Really felt like their baby girl again, the big baby that I am! Hehe...
I even got an early birthday gift! Yay! My parents are going back home tomorrow while my birthday is on Wednesday, so they decided to give me my present early, which I had to open in front of them before they sent me back to my house. I love it! Bliss!

Another day in reality...

Work was really tiring today (Wait! When is it ever not tiring?!? :p).
These past few months have been extremely challenging. But, to lift my spirits up again, I'll just say to myself, "What's life without challenges? Dull!". However, too many challenges can also draw me down, so down that at times it's just so hard to get back up again.
Right now I am trying to find the strength to get back up again. Work is work, studies' not going well (internal issues at the department, which leaves me the direct victim!), etc, etc, etc. It's a bit sad to think that right now, my life evolves / revolves around my work only. Even family and friends have to be placed as secondary priorities. I've not gone back to my hometown for over 3 months now! The last time I was home was during the new year break (1st to 4th January 2009).
It saddens me. Although I do meet my parents now and then when they come over to my sister's or brother's house quite nearby, it's not the same as the feel that a person gets when going home. I guess that's just a part of it - I want to go home. I want to laze about for a while, be enveloped by my parents love and affection, without a care in the world for other things. Call me selfish for not wanting to think about others, but that's what I really need now. I need to get back up again, and it's just so hard at the moment. I put a smile on my face, and everyone thinks I'm fine, but in actuality, I am tired.
Whatever it is, having my faith always with me, I am still grateful for all the things that I do have. My life goes on, regardless. :)

Living life day by day

Life has been quite hard on me these days. Nothing so serious, but things still get me worked up on this and that. Little things become big, while bigger things become bigger. Do they ever get smaller?? :p
I am a woman with many desires. Hahah... sounds a little strange, huh? Well, it's true. Maybe nothing much out of the ordinary things that a woman/girl wants, I think. I not only want material things, but I definitely long for emotional fulfillment - LOVE. Minus family and friends, I've been alone for too long, I guess. Turning another chapter in life (turning another year older, soon), a lot of things have gotten me thinking. How long am I going to be like this? I have so many wants, where do I find the means and ways? Am I taking the right paths? Well, whatever it is, I'm sure there's a reason for everything. The more I think about things, the more "scattered" my thoughts become...so, let's move with the flow of things. From childhood I have always realized that things never go the way you want them too. There are always "pit stops" in life, so take a breather, and freshen up for what lies ahead. :)

On that account, I'm a bit saddened because one of my friends just had a miscarriaged the other day...her 1st baby. :(

Silence

Guess that practically sums up my "silence" from this blog for the past 2 months, right? ;) Anyways, a lot is going on right now. Just a very short post for now, with a pic or 2 from my life. Hehehe...

Triplets, Singapore, studies, work...